softball

Today I played the worst softball game I have ever played.

As I look back on it, there were 7 balls hit to me. Of those 7, I fielded one cleanly. ONE.
One ball I had drop in front of me due to a misread. One I had to dive for (and missed) because I froze on it and broke in late. One hit off my glove. One dropped in BEHIND me because I overran it. Two more went over my head, including the game-loser. Of these six balls I missed, I had legitimate shots to catch them ALL. And missed them ALL.

At the plate, I had two at-bats. Clean single past the shortstop in my first AB. Promptly ran us out of the inning because I lost track of how many outs there were, and got doubled off to make out #3.
Second at-bat, we had closed the gap and had the pitcher seemingly on the ropes. So what do I do? Swing at the first pitch, ground out weakly to second.

The walk back to the dugout was the longest, loneliest walk I've ever had to make.

To top it off, at the end of the game instead of sticking around to apologize to all the guys, I walked right out and drove away. I felt bad about the game, but to leave like that was inexcusable conduct for someone who should definitely know better and I feel worse about that.